habibti leah. we met again. our conversation still present. one thing stayed. you asked him to speak to me adding that perhaps i should hear it from a muslim in the room. i was wondering why you did it. i see two possibilities. 1. you think that hearing it from a muslim would carry more weight in my receptive ear. 2. you feel more open to ideas and critiques when someone shares your identity and feel this may as well apply to me. in both cases the answer is negative. i am mindful of all the identities assigned to me. they form part of my experience of how i see and am seen by the world. i identify as muslim as part of my heritage family tradition seed. but i am also christian. and jewish. two identities that have marked my life through education personal connections presence and history. i may not be allowed to speak in their names but these identities are deeply interwoven with me. our identities are the accumulation of histories narratives beliefs experiences personal connections and stories that mark our ego, fragile anxious defensive mini me, strivings to protect boundaries in a boundless world where we are are one. yahveh. kundalini. eve. allah.
i strive to be mindful of my ego, my defenses built up, flaws, every hour, minute, day. i strive to always be kind and honest in everything i do or say. this is my observation of you. you are a swiss jewish woman. smart. super rational, guided by logic. aspiring to be kind and honest to everyone all the time. clear razor sharp mind, nows how to set priorities act on time. interwoven in a web of deeply pained nodes of human connections all accross faiths beliefs convictions across the globe. like me, you are deeply affected by what is happening in gaza. you share the same core convictions of divine unity of all forms of life. i feel that you cherish and respect me. all the time. but i observe a undercurrent of tension in our relation. hear it from him. he is a muslim. you have a bias that im trying to alert you to. listing named and unnamed witnesses say: what did he mean by that? I feel uncomfortable unwell threatened by him.
we express ourselves not just in our own words but voices we chose to amplify our message. what i sense from you want to tell me is: teymour. not all jews are zionists. we are a rising share of the jewish community who oppose the genocide and stand for equality. we are doing a lot, helping people get out of gaza, write politicians to feed gaza, nonstop. i see and acknowledge that. what i am not sure about is the essence of the bias in me that you are concerned about. if you could just express it. describe it. honestly. clearly.
my speculation/sense right now is that you think there could be a certain negative feeling / hate (i hate using this world because i fail to grasp what it really means) towards jews as a community/identity in me. my sense is that this stems from the references in my texts to swiss jews as a collective community. my sense is that you perceive my writings to swiss jewish brothers and sisters on our relation and responsibility on gaza as a collective indightment, collective responsabilition of jews/swissjews as a collective. that im generalizing, making assumptions, putting all jews into one basket. and maybe that part of it is driven by some unrecognized antisemitism in me.
i cannt prove the absense of hate in me towards any life form because i don't understand the concept. but my answer would be. i don't believe in collective indightment or punishment in any sorts. but i do believe that we should hold ourselves accounbable every day for the role we play in this world. nuclear. communal. global. the present we see in gaza today is the result of choices we made. oct 7 is the result of the choice we made. the state of israel, the apartheid, the genocide in gaza is the result of the choice we made. 1897 in basel. 1898 in basel. 1899 in basel. 1901 in basel. 1903 in basel. 1905 in basel. 1911 in basel. 1927 in basel. 1929 in zürich. 1931 in basel. 1935 lucerne. 1937 in zürich. 1939 in geneva. 1946 in basel. last time before the creation of israel. last time before the nakbah. 14 der 22 pre 48 zionistenkongresse in switzerland. all of them in western europe. 1948. 1956. 1967. 1973. 1991. 2022. 2023. wizo. keren kayemet leisrael. bnei akiva hagoshrim shomer. irg icz sig. communitiy organizations individuals associations institutions and humans. 18'000 swiss jews here. interwoven with 18'000 swiss jews living working fighting for israel.
acknowledging the interwovenness of zionism, settler colonialism, eurocentric ethno nationalism with the present jewish communities in israel and around the world does not mean that i hold all individuals collectively accountable. what i hold them accountable for is their position/action/inaction/complicity in the institutions organizations leaders and representatives complicit in the crimes. i hold us accountable for our awareness of our roles and respective powers we have in the current power structures feeding injustice apartheid ethnic cleansing genocide and our decision to act/speakup/confront violence whever it occurs, from selnau to gaza, palestine, congo, sudan yemen and way way beyond. I hold us accountable to recognize violence in all its forms and shapes. Physical. emotional. conscious. unconscious. recognized. unrecognized. I hold us accountable for holding each other accountable. i hold us humans collectively accountable or the current state we live in. we bear different identities passports histories that have marked our power. chosing to speak out. or to deflect. relativize the pain. minimize the harm. deny. be silent. when violence happens. when there is a crime. when baba sig silences me when i scream stop the apartheid break the siege end the genocide.
this is happening now. every day for two years now since oct 7. nakba sig nie gsi he keeps saying. he shut the door locked me up i keep crying. i feel the pain every day. it huts more than you can imagine. when i say im bleeding in my heart i am not being dramatic. im bleeding every day. when i said 'at some point we need to talk about ellen ringier, roger schawinsky, arthur cohn and sigi feigel' i meant to say 'we need to talk about how zionism has shaped our interersonal and intercommunal - and intracommunal - relations' as part of the broader "we need to talk about how white supremacy in all its forms and shades has deeply infused our collective presence and awareness of ourselves and the other" (insert:human/lifeform) equation. we need to talk about how this has affected our relationships our entire lives, and how it affects us, in our individual and colletive identities and realities. how it is affecting us now. we need to acknowledge the unrecognized pain of the other. the unrecognized violence against the other. we need to talk about what sig gsi jlc crif ihra cicada means for millions of humans - me included - who witness gaza. we need to talk about what dialogue and building bridges means in a genocide. we need to talk about what it means when an organization representing and claimig to speak in your name is denying and silencing an ongoing genocide. We need to talk about what this means to me. to you. to be you. to our future children and grandchildren and their interwoven relationships with each other. We need to talk about it now.
october 7. home. should i stay or should i go. mahnwache am tessinerplatz, the epicenter of my deepest fear rage anger darkness, on the one year anniversary of what would become my first live streamed nakba shoa holocaust sarajevorwanda. 6pm. sig. gsi. ch n il flaggen only, no words. just dark dark dark feelings. i had always hoped it would have ended by now. not sure why. it didnt. ceasing the fire. in any conflict between any party always first commonsensical step.
except for palestine. gaza. 365 days of exceptions. from geneva. united nations. conventions. principles. 365 days of parallel worlds, always existed, always persisted, exposed. 365 of parallel standards n values n words that suddenly have lost all meaning. human rights. right to defend. right to exist. right to resist. right to breathe. right to live.
i want to forgive my swiss jewish brother. i see him. always did. jerusalem-endingenlengnau-baden-zurich-bern-genf-brunau-schwitz-1945. expelled caged beaten up killed for a crime he never committed. but i also see my palestinian sister. gaza. bleeding. 1947-now. expelled caged beaten up killed for a crime she never committed. i knew what was happening. the beatings the violence the abuse. it affected the whole family, her sisters yemen lubnan suria mama were hit too. i knew about it. early on. I knew he was involved. but i stayed silent. i was complicit in my silence. since oct 7. i cant. no more.
habibi. achi. we need to talk. have a walk. eye to eye. heart to heart.
oct 7. nova. nakba. vilna. warsaw. gaza. eye for many eyes. lets start.
to talk. about what happened. before. so that we can acknowledge. responsibility. for our shared yet separated history. of violence. war. persecution. execution. of many many operations n final solutions. from endingen, lengnau selnau auschwitz to gaza. heute. morgen. manana. demain, bokra, shana nova tova. yalla. yalla.
violence needs to end. violence harms my life. violence harms your life.
oppressing=violence. silencing=violence. denying=violence. gaslighting=violence. intimidating=violence. bombing=violence. starving=violence. dehumanizing=violence. checkpoints=violence. judenstern=violence. existenzrecht=violence. silence=violence.
human=life form interwoven with all life. you=human. i=human. you hurt me you hurt.
you=swiss jew (sig.gsi.). you have been hurting me for a long time. every time i wanted to talk about it you looked walked talked away zurich telaviv id ferie allez retour gaza bleeding comme toujours. bim bam boom hamas hamas palestinos habibi no quierendendermas. until oct 7 happened.
1 200
shock. anger. rage. revenge. fire. oct7-now. 365 days. 12 months. one year.
1 200 + 40 000++ 1 200+++
tachles. chalas. arabe. babe. lets end. fresh start.
ich kam. ich saw. ich weinte. oct 7. 6pm. tessina. de mitte kefiyyeh isch wide da.
katia. berta. bene. vida. leah. laila. nova. gaza. bleeding. bleeding. bleeding. allah.
who? akbar. alam. alarm. polizei. wachsam. speaker. gsi.sig. ic. zrh. el. elon. ellen. eva. ngelika. blaue fishe. blaue sterne. river. sea. hatikva. schweizer. kreuz. ion. atom. kern. leuchtstreifen. kristall. stern. leuchtend. gelb. bluetend. wuetend. hell. wach. bethlehem beirut haifa jerushalaim alquds nasragaza. toujours pret. toujours la.
pret de partir. finir. pleure chanter danser mourir. nicht bei denen. bei uns. jetzt. hier.
schweizer. psalm. hatikva. mann. waffen. verteidigung. existent. terror. liebe. praesent. 45 to 48. sicherheit vs recht. zrh-tlv. wie du mir so ich wir. verletzt.
7 oktober. terror. gemetzel. shoa. geiseln. tote maenner. frauen. kinder. geissen.
hamas. hamas. hamas. no mas. nunca mas. a donde vas. gaza. gaza. vs gaz.
rewind oct 7. 5pm. so should i stay or should i go? siri anyone i dunno. i don’t want.
feel more pain. sit. breathe. inhale. exhale. lily. leash. leah. train. tram. enge. yalla.
do something uncomfortable. every day. but this? on october 7. yes. because. allah.
akbar. then your biggest anxieties dreams n fears. of humans. of sig. of gsi. ici.
so i went. with lily and kefiyyah. the swiss guy from iskandariyyah. walking down the steps of the river of svizer to the sea of tessin. emotions: fear. unsafe. hated. mistrust. disgust. anger. and a tiny little spark of. curiosity. of. what if me met. looked each other. in the eye. so many eyes. glancing pointing staring at me. jehuda n jehudis mamas babas zios of zuri.
i try to practice eye contact. helps me seem more human. i can’t. not today.
i spot berta. she is speaking to someone. i wait patiently until she sees me.
hug. i am so happy to see you. i am really happy that you’re here. me too.
warmth. home. love. safety. suddenly a ray of sunlight torching the dark day from behind.
she appears. mama. malka. katia. achi. achti. sister. habibti. hug. golden shivering eyes.
we sit. we talk. we weep. we hug. mama, mama, here, hobb. lily. sit. home. dihei.
i hear the speeches. i listen. stroke lily. try holding back my tears but weep.
at the lost sons and daughters. of october 7 vilna warsa and others.
drowned in the sea, of you did to me i will do this to youweep. not my responsibility.
sig. gsi. tsuri. geschter nova gescher gaza broken heal please. bridges jisrs needed here.
keywords recorded: oct 7. greulich. massaker. 1200. juedinnen und juden. holocaust. hamas. terror. existenzrecht. israel ausloeschen. bibel. thora. the chosen people. auserwaehltes volk. recht. me. here. missing: you. her. him. them. over there.
sitting weeping i found comfort. in a rising circle. surrounded by a menorah of light. of women. frauen. feminas. dominas. berta. katia. lily. mama. rom rom roms bollags bloch leah laila the swiss jewish woman. sister. daughter. mother. malka. what happened to her. trudy. buergerin vs juedin. from zurich to falastin.
how did we feel? i felt uncomfortable. angespannt. muede, traurig, verbrannt. katia was concerned how she would be seen sitting next to me. she knows many people and more people know her. it added to my discomfort because i didnt want her to feel uncomfortable. but i also didn’t want to leave her. where would i go? nowhere safe. nowhere home. it felt like a torture chamber that i entered with my free will.
black kefiyyeh. should i wear it or not. i knew that it would make people uncomfortable. but i wore it every day since oct 7 in mourning and solidarity with its victims. how could i not. christian muslim arabi jahudi mama tot.
takeaways: trauma. therapy. katia said it, she feels. hears. listens. weeps. with me. stretch yourself. yoga. life. spagat. get ready for many many more uncomfortable encounters talks arguments debates moments to walk speak dance with the darkest darkest moments of your life fuer eine neue freie menschliche schweiz. welt. halb. sonne. halb. mond.
yalla. get ready. move. get ready. parat. set the stage. clean ya dishes ordnung spaaaaaat. always immer immer spaat. yalla yalla move engez engels gaza burning pressing. plan. plan. plan. organize. your thoughts. your wohnung. your life. breathe. in. out. repeat.
plan: sig. gsi. israeli. jahudi. ja. israeli apartheid. occupation. starvation. hostages. gas n bombs n genocidal nation. nein. existenz. ja. recht. ja. alle. ja.
challenge: how
answer: you. dina. dina. dina. kadiadinaniela. ruth. leah. yael. berta. deborah. shelley. candice. anjushka. feldman. lion. fierce. rochelle. brave. unorthodox. jewish. woman.
targets: ellen rachel luethy roger spielmann arthur braun schawinksi cohn schweig baba mama sista bruda oma opa onkel tante from trauma grief anger rage to a new beautiful human dawn.
prioritize. plan. rationalize. autistic question. how do you prepare prioritize life in a genocide? sit. still. breathe. repeat. pain. killers. less pain. less killers. sit. with it. loving. burning. present.
to do. list. to do list. to. do. list. repeat. do. to. list. list to do. do. do. move. dance. breathe. laugh. cry. go. system error: sensory overload. cool down. repeat. decisions decisions. little. big. postponed. impulse. control. pilot.
modes: villanelle. flight attendant. robotic mama. eve. pilot. captain. queen. elle.
other modes: stalling. spiraling. freezing. fighting. fleeing. falling.
to do: beautify. place. create. place. garden. light. around you. home. kitchen bath lily do. move. dance. sing. talk. clean. divine. order. you.
flashback tessin: the most stinging eyes came from those young jewish men. agitated. nervous. reminiscent of the rage of a boy whose sister was badly beaten. it was discomforting because i never experienced it. the beating. the angry brothers stares. i couldn’t. hurt. a fly. keeping myself wondering just one thing. why.
observation: they came in slowly fading in watching observing discreet scary me me. assimilated. fine clothing. passing. swiss. gemeinsam einsam. in a way. no joy. no hurray. but where were agudas achim? the wiedike jude n the fierce wigged ladies? shapshot of zurich jews babies. veraengstigt. vereint. gespalten. misstrauisch. daheim. gemeinsam. bitter. wuetend. allein.
michi kommt. alarm mayday. aircraft stalling. welcome achi. steer wheel control. welcome aboard. flight attendant stewart pilot. yes habibi el al in trouble, engines failing. ans ruder. bereit. gaza. tel aviv. befreit. are you ok? yeah I am. I’m fine. are you ok? yes I am. one of the most dreadful questions I’ve been facing since oct 7 because I hate lying. But what can I tell them? That my heart has been bleeding watching more children more mothers more human limbs ashes plastic bags filled with the dripping remains of humanity. That I struggle to maintain a normal life n keep my sanity. That I often wish I was never born in world lacking empathy, kindness and clarity, repeatedly failing to see the link between yourself and hannah’s banality.
“You really should see a therapist, I’m getting worried”. Thank you dear. I will. I’ve been worried too for a long time. Terrified. Sad. Depressed. I hope that one day, you can see me.
“we’re plagued by dead language and dead stories that serve people whose aims are nothing short of a dead world. its not enough to stand against these dissemblers. there has to be something in you. something that hungers for clarity. you’ll need that hunger because if you follow that path soon enough you’ll find yourself confronting not just their stories, but your own." ta-nehisi coates. the message.
ta nehisi. instructions to all black brown purple people to start write. tell our story. from pain to glory. spot on. gaza. burning burning. yalla. yalla. thank. you. habibi.
but how do i write with so many crazy monkeys in my mind. sit. still. breathe. stretch. meditate. repeat. order. clean your home. do your dishes. dress up. class. action.
question: how to dismantle patriarchy toxic masculinity n white supremacy? a: start with gaza. now. instructions: efficient. sharp. alert. present. no more time to waste. with unsettled decisions. memories. conversations. about the past. present.
look at your nodes. past episodes. of connection. capture. wrap. heal. seal.
fire fire burning. i know. let it be. sit with the deepest pain. here.
you n me.
Objective: Understand what zionism has done to me. to us.
Instructions: Look at your nodes. connect. look at your history. reflect. about what happened. what really happened. violence. violence. violence. mad. violence. violence. violence. sad. injustice. baba. mama. oma. tot. in vila. in warsaw. in berlin. in hamburg. in paris. roma. bella italia. bulgaria. arabia. persia. iran. to gaza.
Challenge: how to reconcile your past with your present. sig. gsi. cnn. bbc. nzz. tagi. bundesrat. parlament. representatives. voices. faces. humans. sending more n more bom bom booms to ga ga gaza libana rabia.
First step: sit. with the pain. deep. breathe. in and out. branch. out. to a whole new universe of how love could be. could feel like. if you let me live. breathe. dance. go to school. become a teacher. grow. blossom.
with you.
Targets: Mama. Oma. Dina. Dina. Ivo. Pa. Robby. RoShelley. Rom. Rom. Britney. Burak. Adam. Anne. Eve. You.
Outcome: Love. So much more love.
Method: Organization. Individual and Collective. Connect. Heal. Connect. Heal. Repeat.
Case Study: Switzerland. Bingo. Bingo. Concrats. Unicorn Country. Innocent. Achi Ya? Geile. Siech. Genau. Lengnau. Endingen. Eve. Adam. Wilhelm. Tell. Apfel. Schuetz. Schutz. Im Krieg. Viele Bunker. Heil. Sieg. Au. Schwitz. Er. Nazi. SS. au. au. au. sterity. reich. sehr reich. zureich. zurecht. voelkerrecht. zuercherrecht. araberrecht. musilmannerrecht. gschtampfte. albaner. italiener. algerier. vedammte. jud. as. ass. cake. ebe. deet isch s problem. ass vs cake. chuchi. chaschtli. bi mier deheime noed bi dir. mir. ihr.
vs
mir. amira. mohamed. khalida. baba. mama. amr. achi. ani. ana. teymour.
+ every black brown beige purple slavic person + all women
+ many more
- you
so today i understood what it means to be black. it means to live in a constant state of suffering. dark. black. void. i broke my hand. lily broke the leash. jumped again. for life. i neglected her. she wants to run smell meet live. with me. here. i have been absent. freeze. paralysis. anger. pain. hiding. slain. villain. vs elle. lily. fierce dona queen vanilly. you. gaza. gaza. you. gaza. you.
step 1: you. breathe. in. out. present. focused. alive.
step 2: life. gaza. gaza. life. write. pause. breathe. write. repeat.
pathway to healing: from white male fragility to dark black hostility to namibia africa america oceania pangea to vilna warsa shoa white european german jewish supremacy to nakba to gaza bleeding healing us all.
14. october. notfall. station. hand aua aua need help maybe broken. arbeit? nein. unfall. ja. versichert. nein. alarm, alarm you have to pay that honey, no money no arm. dealers. insurance. helsana. call. rueckwirkend auf 1 oktober versichert tutto bene alles klar. shapshot: lots of people. all walks of life. feeling sick broken hurt ill ill ick. aufnahme name versicherung konto yalla yalla minus pronto. lots of viruses n bacteria swirling around. no mask mandate. for visitor n staff. leaving her vulnerable. the lady in front of me. with a strained aching transplanted lung crying for help. singing to the hearts of all of us. to tell us. please. stop. hurting. me. two bankers. insurance brokers. something buz buz busy. hand broken running to catch flight. ba. united. swiss. air canada. lx. sr. sa. airline this airline that delta gamma beta vs gaza. now. sitting next to them. awkward. so i continued to write. physicians. looking at 3 d pictshas of our organs all day long. weisse kittel. birkenstock. overall. ct scan pt scan ptsd men man mam. gips. plasters. ventilators. lung transplants. failing. saving. gaza. me. politics. insurance. competition. weapon. world bank. bits. protection. gaps. spot on. agreed. indeed. we fight. we flight. we bleed. climate. deals. swiss. government. slide between the gap. gap. stop. breathing. pick them up. took the hit. yes they did. doctor. ambulance. debriefing. casualties. collateral damage. emergency. trauma. live. alive. no more. silence. stop. the. violence. lots a goeman doctors at uzh. ironic twist of history hah. no smoking in the patio. no masks in the hallways, go. you have come a long way in avoiding. dropping. anxiety. let the last bits fade away to meet your pure soul. traum. trauma. mama. gone. now. whatsapp. messenges. notes. calls. ay ay roger. teymour you here? no? yes i am. thank you for waiting. waiting for so long. im hurt. hung. over. on. board. now. technical understanding conversation mom gets annoyed her next job career man. job heartbeat acclaimed people regulators central banks lawyers legal counsels.
vs.icc. icj. icu. zh.
she is hurt. she has been hurting for a long time. you have been hurting her. we all did. its time we stop. steven is not alright. no one is.
more people in the second waiting room. you can take a seat here. be right with you. inshallah. soon. white men. white kittles. white goeman kittens. white brits. black suits. money koffer airline broken hand bunney. all in one room. waiting for salvation. ambulanz station. radio. scan. zone of comfort. interest. swiss. nation. beep. beep. beep. beep. pause. breathe. in out. repeat. uk. ok. us. new way. scan. heal. go home. lily. walk. talk. play.
this is what witnessing a live genocide does. me getting angry at lily. making her responsible for my inability to take care of her. she is innocent. we arent. but we try. some of us do. i. cry.
not crazy. doctors. dentists. business. men. working. lazy. he’s got the beauty. hamilton. two fingers to the irs. wait he is irish. i think. invest personal money in something you believe in. take a leap of faith. jump. grow. random observation: men spend a lot of time talking about how to get more money. maximize. optimize. win win. realize. profit. why do you think is that. capitalism, honey. give me your wallet i need your money.
6.30 pm. still waiting. room gets filled with more n more patient n impatient humans. german asian doctor. no room, gotta treat you in the waiting room. in front of everyone. get naked. tell your story. yalla. i fell on the floor. lily jumped boom concrete floor. notfall. cry for help when you need it the most. notfall. teuer. expensive. lengthy. wait. wait. more. wait.
7.40. tick. tock. clock. ticking. lily waiting home calling me here silly.
we dont have a room. tell the story of your fall everyone listening hall o elo anyone here health care gone missing habibi dear. 7.45. another bomb on gaza. 7 men. 7 kids. 7 women. puff. gone. here.
offers. salaries. travels. us. uk. switzerland. goemany. france. espania. near.
you. me. arabi. jahudi. masri. swizri. is. me.
river. is you. sea. me. free.
gaza. gaza.
gaza.
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oct 7-oct14. one year. one week. boom boom boom boom. tueren ohren augen zu. reich. too comfortable. too. aware. to care. ju. de. us. providebit. bom bom bombs. blue fish star of david. vilna warsa schwitz al lah gaza. 20 min tagi nzz blick tele tsueri srf drs gaga vs gaza. medie macht gwalt geg mama. you could feel their inconvenience, my inconvenience, of waiting for four hours to get an answer. that youre safe. that youre broken. that you can heal. imagine us waiting in the same room. in gaza. crazy right. yeah i know. welcome to my world. our world habibi, please dont go.
8pm. silence radio. no food. some water. no white coat man. notfall. uzh. conclusion. never again. avoid it at all costs. sad mirror of the violent white man. viele kranke. viele kassen. wenig kassierer. mehr patienten. mehr gewalt. mehr geld. mehr krankheit. mehr leiden. weniger leben und leben lassen. lily wartet.
9pm. immer noch allein. im zimmer. ohne doktor lily frei. five hours gone. more to come. still in pain. not home. to do to do. lily gassi love you. good news is i can type. words thoughts feelings life. lost its meaning, long ago,i know i know. we will heal we will process we will progress find home. in a new place where icu. i hear you feel you respect too. protect nourish cherish flourish. blossom sing laugh n cry. about the days when we forgot to remember why. we’re here. we’re there. we’re all over time and space. connected. separated. harmed. killed. wounded. broken. finding more and more cracks. if sunlight. to guide is from the dark to a new morning night.
21.06. still silence radio. white kittens n babies gone through the door. beep beep youre still alive. no doctor, rescue, nurse in sight. welcome to gaza honey zurich no more. aerzte dottores talking with each other alot. patients waiting patiently for their time, for their slot. to fly away. released from suffering. from heaven to hell.
habibi achi. ochti. brother. sista. emanuel wyler rebekka.
how many bombs. limbs. leah. dead israeli mamas in gaza.
can we take. to feel. pain. inside. heal. live. breathe. live.
safe. secure. protected. respected. free.
robby writes jeff sa good boss owner
imperfect but principled rich nice loner
never interfered with what we write n see
until his column thrashed it all no yes vote kamala in the fall
ammiel hirsch. emotionially damaged. jewishly.
white. rabby. zionist. angry. baba. yelling.
justice. honesty. decency. for all people.
if all that collides with israel, so be it.
we wanted you to be zionists.
we did not mean. tikkun olam.
palestinian life cacher haram.
Home. Mama. My religion.
Halbmond. Stars. decision.
To give. forgive. be grateful.
For allah. life. beauty. mars.
venus. jupiter. earth. world.
Bridge. Between ost n west.
us. animals. roaches. rats. n the rest.
of humanity sinking in the comfort of hannahs banality.
war. war. mine. es. war.
einmal ein kind. mensch. leben.
geben. vergeben. nehmen und geben.
wie du mir so ich dir. liebe vergebung unser hier.
Islam. Befrriedung. Frieden. Freiheit.
Allah. Alles. Nichts. Same.
Licht. Wasser. Sonne. Blume.
Growing. Crawling. Shining. Flowing.
Spring. River. Sea. Ocean. Breeze.
Air. Floating. Flying. Circling. Rising.
Boom. Boom. Dying. Seeds. Gaza.
Home. mama. my religion.
Leah. malka. light. vision.
of a tree. of candles. of love n light.
intertwined stars. corners. dove.
She carries the weight. of pain love emotions.
Strollers. groceries. careers. high heels. fierce wigs.
Malka. dona. amira. reina. mama. dina. laila. leah.
eve.
guilty. of treason. of deception.
of war genocide n starvation.
innocent until proven guilty.
history of pain pain more n more pain.
children mamas babas died in vain.
in vila. warsa. europa. africa.
pangea. yougo. slavia.
jerusalem allez retour.
from spain to auschwitz
from pain to auschwitz
from rage to gaza.
existenz. recht. neutral.
banal. human. tradition.
geneva. zurich. basel. bern.
lugano. convention. ending en
lengnau napoleon constitution
swiss jew frau. semit. jud.
neger. muselmann.
schweizer. kreuz. unbekannt. land.
unschuldig. beobachter. neutral.
betrachter. brun. schweig.
voelkerschau. schwitz. gold.
mark. grenze. eng.
pass. tunnel. palast.
nations. unis. money. cars. watches.
honey. milk. chocolate. bars. gold. stars.
rockets. wars. pkz. nzz. credit. suisse.
cards. masters. euro. visa. schengen.
lebensraum. alp. traum. boot. ab. schaum.
zone of interest. swissair. first class.
lots a business. gold. apartheid. nazi. jehudas.
boom boom. sr 1291 schiefe lage krumm.
bewustloser pilot am steuer. cassis.
isis. hijacked. off course. heading.
twin towers. humanity. babies.
kids. momies. sanctity.
parlament. initiative. volk.
unterschriften. sammlung. menschen.
gewissen.to: end the genocide.
end our complicity. 1933. 1945. 1948. now.
i don’t wanna get married. not sure about having kids. more physically attracted to men. feel more connected to women. am i gay? maybe, lets try. but wait. its so white. so male. so racist. so cliche. i like women in gay bars, drawn to them like the moon to the stars. but fixated held prisoner in my mind, my own distorted image of the w/right/e guy. sort of a white ken. not with barbie but with him. the white american gay white male. twerking to rupaul shaming bottoms tops his face. pretty much my nightmare guy. and after gaza, my oh my. god was i wrong. in attempting to be white male strong. discovering my colors, layers, shades, kinks n explorations. of sensuality. of sexuality. of connection, meaning and kindness. maybe you’re queer. curious to learn whats beyond your comprehension imagination of sexy hot n real. male female fusing in between who knows, gender, fluidity, essence shows. im neither tied nor freed of any gender identities realities fantasies n ideals, preference is it depends, if i feel it in here. pansexual. asexual. polyamorous. curious. liberated. queer.
I wish you saw the violence you’ve inflicted. on us. still are.
the image of every child in gaza engraved in my heart.
i saw it today. i lived it yesterday. sara. jevo. bosna. govina.
vietnam. iraq. afghanistan. yemen. chechnia. kiev. all gone.
your supremacy is violating me, triggering my trauma, again and again.
been there. hiding from the snipers. love. broken. fear.
will i die. today. tonight. far away from home at night.
what time. what day. will it be.
until the dust n gas of bombs clears
to see me.
loved. protected. safe. respected.
here. over there. gaza new york bern.
celebrating the essence of our unity.
beauty. suffering. duty.
to cry. to say nei. please no more.
bombs. cages. walls. iron domes.
for hearts. souls. spirits. doves.
dogs. cats. humans. love.
I never hated him. I’m not sure I know what hate means.
The concept of hating someone just for being. I couldn’t hate, resent, hurt a fly.
They are companions lovers reminders of our life.
Telling us to protect and nourish food waste nature
to keep moving out of curiosity and danger.
To miss tomorrow by standing here.
Watching humans animals forests burning
bleeding from all rivers to one sea.
But I admit that I felt a lot of rage, anger, resentment towards him. still.
The swiss jewish white privileged jehudi.
mourning the beheaded pic. accepting its not right to kill him. not me.
a child in gaza. crying in his tent. mama. mama. when will this end.
it began way before oct 7. schaecht. verbot.
essen nicht koscher. haram. halal.
stimme. nein. napoleon. fein.
aber nur zwei doerfer. lengnau. endingen. rhein.
ins vergnuegen. schweizer bist du jetzt.
gedehmuetigt. vertrieben. gehetzt.
in gaza. rafah. jenin. jaffa.
pack yo bags. take your belongings. go. home.
hausierer ewig hausierer. gewinner und verlierer.
der neutralen schweiz. reichtum. geiz.
beheaded babies n pigs.
beheaded minarettes figs.
olive trees. lives. bees. watermelon seeds.
seeking honey in the land where milk and honey grows.
on the wounds of plantations starvation you.
jahudi. falastini. arab. jahud. i.
oct 7
Oct 7. Boom. Dark Room.
What is happening. Babies Girls Mamas Crying.
Music stops. Panic. People confused. Running.
Running for life. Trapped. Bunker. Babies born dying.
Nova. Gaza. Vilna. Warsa. Shoa. Nakba.
Oct 7. 1333. 1933. 1937. 1945.
Oct 7. 1947. 1948. 1956. 1967.
Oct 7. 1973. 1982. 2001. 2023.
Twins. Towers. Hit. Falling.
On a world we. Never. Always. Knew.
Why. Why. Why. Why. We. Die.
They. Did it. First. Kill him. Jesus. Me.
Yeah but how did he respond.
With his cheek love forgiveness or bombs.
Blue sharks lurking in the dark.
Waiting for the hiding white messias to start.
A nova shoa nakba again.
To wipe humanity from them.
A ripe apple halbmond stern.
Tempted. Dark. Different. Shark.
Don’t. Do. Don’t. Do.
Bite. Save. Kill. Eve.
Her fault. She seduced you.
His fault. He stabbed you.
Back. Then. Eye for Eve.
Eve to Die. Replay on Repeat.
You need to control her.
She needs to know who's boss.
Wall her off. Lock the doors.
Tell the neighbors she’s a criminal whore.
Take her keys. Her belongings.
Her dreams aspirations longings.
To be free. To be me.
To speak breathe dance freely.
Take the mike. Mute her voice.
Rape her of life breath body choice.
Lock her up in a room. No food no water gauze or plaster.
Take her clothes roof bed. Cut off light power internet.
Tell her to move. On the roof. Back to the basement.
Stay there. Booom. Boom. Bunker Hamas.
Puff Gone. Destroyed. Game Over. Chalas.
Gone. Eve Never Existed. Erased.
Eve. Killed. Apple. Weapon. Seized.
Tell. Avive. Her Story. Dispossessed. Beaten.
Gehetzt. Verletzt. Geschlagen. Besetzt.
Tell missed Apple. Gaza hit. Watermelon. Explodes. Leaves.
Seeds. October. Bleed. Fall. Find Water. Find Light. Life.
Grow. Flow. Rise. Glow. Back. Home. Safe. Rooted. Vernetzt. High.
Lavaterstrasse
enge. walk. strasse. water.
tucked away. home. cold. strange.
gemeinschaft. zentrum. swiss jews.
connecting. talking. eating. praying. reflecting.
is it possible. make peace. aus schluss.
cassis. tessiner. platz. isis. here. mein revier.
lets find out. tonight. zurich zios mamas batyas light.
mesusas. menorah. ahava hava nagila dina shines bright.
first redner. icz. jaques lang. old baba. angry boss.
grauer anzug. zittrige stimme. wut. wut. wut. wut.
da. shock. shoa. survivor. nakba. denier.
mama leah hanna laila hind hala. tot.
next stop. jlg. or chadash. woman.
tovias daughter. mama. bint bin chorin.
gescher. 25 tischri. erstes trauerjahr. zaesur.
rache rache. wut wut. ruth mut. tut etwas. macht.
ein jahr danach. trauer trauma vergeltung cargo fracht.
zukunft vision leben? imagine. john lennon.
all the people living life in peace. from gaza to tel aviv.
dreamer oh dreamer. not the only one.
flower power zeit. lang lang forbei. geschter.
morn. gescher. bridge. ben chorin habibi. love.
snapshot vibe: peace is possible shomer shalom achshav meets end the genocide you hamas.
next stop: new israel fund. jaron habibi. rockstar. anzug. elegant.
shy but determined voice. starts. zwei rabinner. jlg. sig. gescher. sicher.
gleichberechtigtes israel. hamas greueltaten geiseln. israeli. palaestinenser. freundschaft. here.
israel unterstützen und gegen extreme regierung. mitgefuehl.
juedisch arabisch muslimisch. clap. clap. former israel ambassador thank you achi. snap.
the president is on. dina dina on the mike.
gescher geschter haha awkward nerdy professora like.
amplifies thanks jaques brigitta jaron danke alla.
explains batmitzva klarinette mit langen pes.
first geek girl woman with stern. juedin. buergerin.
nachbarin. schwester. schwester. heute morgen gestern.
gescher juni ganz neu extrem viel positives feedback.
demokratisch, humanistisch, liberale werte. fuer nahost.
spot blue girls n pals. shomer? bnei akiva? hagoshrim? was.
dina fragt nach geld. flashback ellen ringier. bettelfrau back. here.
for a good cause dina all good lets raise funds yallah. danke danke.
si seit: efach mitenand rede. s chunnt guet. thank you. thank you.
shalom salam willkommen. seid brav nice und besonnen. bye.
next speaker. adina. achtung achti speaking. fine sweet development lady. nadel.
stich. herz. bricht. bruecke. gedicht. spricht.
principles of dialogue. ncbi nina rahel flashback.
instructions how to talk. care team here.
sensory overload follow them big heart.
si seit eigentlich wider s gliich wed dina.
we dont have to agree habibis. but lets try to see.
if we can cross that bridge. ensemble. you and me.
fight flight fight fight flight icj icc. ici. here. mercy.
next on: grounding meditation connection exercise:
two ladies. ice breaker. questions. like do you like ice cream?
if yes. stand up/raise hand. if not. sit still. man mam.
first question: do you support genocide? joke. haha.
seriously. who came from zueri? who came from further away?
been to israel? yay. been to westbank or gaza? uhm errr ay ay.
yudo yehudas. more than expected. thinking wait.
been there as what? aravi. mitzri. muslim. jahudi.
swiss pass. staatenlos. ost oder west. moslem jude.
alquds. israili. swiss. falistini? settler hausierer
gewinner oder verlierer? because it matters habibi.
zurich. telafif. gaza. spiegel judas eva.
apple for apple. tree for tree. olives figs watermelon seeds.
from the river to the sea. never safe never seen heard free.
jahudi arab muslim trauma to foreva nova beri bleeding mama.
next question: are you sometimes unsure what to think about israel palestine?
many many. how bout difficult conversations with non jews? viel.
difficult convos with jews? more.
nervous to come tonight? some.
did you ever meet a palestinian? silence. first signs of life, first love.
path of smart questions towards unity. free doves.
peace prayer. victims. ic. zrh. shoa. waw. vno. txl. sxf. muc. fra. lid. lod. tlv. bey. ika. dam. sah. gza. rah. gva. nova. nakba. gaza.
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the most silent minute of silence of my life.
Open letter to SIG
bonjour. guten tag. tachles. chalas.
sig swiss israeli jewish violence. no mas.
you. complicit.
icc. icj. gaza. genocide. innit.
existenz. recht. apartheid ghettos cages. schlecht.
bomben. panzer. messerschmitt. raketen. auf unserem planeten.
trenches digging trenches haben wir erlebt. erleben wir.
in vilna warsa rheinmetal buerhle elbit gaza.
unsere rolle: mehr waffen gewalt macht gegen sie.
palaestinenser araber muslime jewish habibis.
fighting for love. women. freedom.
united. interwoven.
separated.
fighting.
for unrwa. for hamas. for life. chaim. us.
gewalt. unterdrueckung. bombs. no mas.
sig rolle: cease. the fire.
the oppression intimidation harassment
silencing humans creeds nations
standing fighting shouting in solidarity.
with you. vilna warsa gaza mama.
let us live. joke. dance. breathe.
life into you. your conscience.
is alive. go.
acknowledge that all humans are equal.
its that simple. from theory. to practice.
bern. switzerland. zurich. basel geneva now.
call for action: call your mamas uncles zio babas.
tell them you wan’t them back home, safe. now.
in a new reality. where ruth and leah trump hannahs banality.
play with laila ahmed sanja shana tova nova eve.
not killing eve. no genocide. no nation.
should see live feel what gaza has to be.
when we oppress cats dogs humanity
animals plans stars from blossoming
out of endless wars. stop the violence.
act now. gaza. bern. geneva basel selnau.
connect. sit with pain. heal.
act. now. gaza bleeds.
ich du au. genau.
Open letter to SIG
hello ello its me. ellen elon habibi.
notruf. gaza brennt. menschen sterben.
ausgehungert gefangen ins verderben.
zur erloerlosung von dieser welt.
sig. genozid.
sig. suizid.
sig. femizid.
sig. complicit.
first. little bit of history.
what happened. to you n me.
spring. river. sea.
flowing. ocean. free.
cross. spain.
expulsion. extermination pain.
wanderer. hausierer. gewinner und verlierer.
gain lose it all again and again.
ghettos. kz. belongings. wings.
cut. cupped. burns. stings.
in memory. in conscience.
in living. trauma.
vilna warsa east europa au revoir
pack you bags leave
to the promised land
hand in hand
we clean up the country from its people
grow cherries tomatoes nuclear plants
cage oppress erase moms infants
reminders of own history relived denied
its enough. let it go.
40’000 hopes n dreams destroyed.
mirrors of your humanity.
hannah’s sick white privilege banality.
he has the right to exist.
beat her when she cries or resists.
the violence of the swiss jewish male.
white. toxic. fragile. pale.
knowing what he’s done. still doing.
beating killing drinking suing silencing
all those to stand up for his bleeding wife.
We will cry shoud demand life until we die.
stop the violence. against us.
jews arabs muslim southern eastern
slavic asian pangean connecting
determined dancing singing protecting
life as precious as larah, leah, laila, gaza.
tikkun olam. hevenu shoa alechem.
i know. we know. we're seeing it. now.
that's why. dear sig. stop.
the safety of all communities is intertwined.
jewish arab muslim reconnection and healing
key to recovery of humankind.
you hurt me you hurt. we do.
gaza. selnau. schwitz. sig. du. au.
bitte hoer uf. ma. mama. frau.
immerno inferno in gaza. alive.
elen alon ellen eve shot. died.
sig: gsi: cassis: silence. violence.
complicity. genocide. icc: Icj: released.
hilfe. anerkennung. palaestina.
sig arabi muslim jahudi united. frei.
Open letter to SIG
sig. if you cut the branch of a tree.
menora. river. light. sea.
we bleed. all of us. arabi.
masri jahudi mamas.
sig. swissjew. ch.
ich. swissarab. hier.
it hurts me. nova. vilna.
nova. warsa. nova. shoa. nakba. gaza.
now. how. silent.
mamas babas schreiend weinend.
koffer parat bomben haende hoch an die wand.
kann nicht raus. hilf mir. wo ist sig. wo seid ihr.
endingen. langnau. selnau.
jericho. gaza. selber mann selbe frau.
mensch. human. bluete. bluetend. wuetend.
auf dich. sig kei nakba gsi.
alles erstunke. alles erloge.
waffe waffe grenze zoge.
use mit eu, deet ine.
kawumm kabumm.
puff gone.
humanity. integrity. hannas.
dieing from your banality.
of evil. of hate.
toxic masculine waste.
let it go. embrace mama.
life. hannah. ahrendt.
eichmann wald brennt.
cease the fire.
now. respect me. respect life.
respect blossoming shades
of light ascending from
gaza to the sky.
SIG 16.12.24.
17.50. uzh. security at all doors. securitas advice entry not before 18.00. i sit at the tables. older man n lady sitting across, mustering me. october 7 demo swiss jews flashback. one security at one entry. 5 securities of other entry. only one entry open. private company, nervous, wachsam. checkpoint again at uzh. we are boarding a flight to tel aviv again. yalla. ich gah mal go absitze. ich au. we meet we greet, same same here. heute abend bin ich hannah ahrendt. beobachterin. taking notes. observing. listening. recording. processing. breathing. being kind. being forgiving. confronting.
I sit down near the gate. a swiss jewish couple musters me. the woman pierces through my eyes like an eagle. I smile back like a charming snake. basquiat smile. she knows im up to no good. she can sense it in my eyes. me too. smile. as I listen to their conversation. die linke. the left. shes talking about me. something like hamas hisbolla iranian revolution. schad. indeed. vepasst. defensif reagiert. suddenly awoken by the gate agent. boarding announced. please proceed to the gate. lx 2024 to tel aviv ready for boarding. a queue is formed. no first class tonight, but extra securetay. show me yo bags. i glance through the passengers. i couldnt guess where this flight is heading. mostly older white people in chique clothes. two veiled women. now the younger crowd starts flocking in. they look discreet. almost too discreet. suspicious. what’s cooking.
all bags are opened. flashlights to see exactly what’s in there. one yellow kippiah. sbb vbz crowd. swiss action for human rights. i walk down to see the exhibition prepared by the talk hosts/organizers. testimonials of five shoa survivors. their stories read like whats been happening in gaza. to gazans. since 1948. only the names have changed, the fate stays the same. organizers n security walking around nervous. walking back to my seat i dare myself to take a glance of the crowd n make eye contact. i feel strong. i feel exotic. i feel voelkerschau. i return to my seat. drink water. breathe. ding dong. 6.15pm. pushback. take off. flight starts.
moderator intro: panel ist hochrangig. divers. unserer sicht sehr interessant. vorwegnehmen: wann ist israelkritik antisemitisch nicht abschliessend beantwortet werden kann. we will have different views. we will hear these views in the plenary. graph with sicher antisemitisch vs sicher nicht. ppt slides. he speaks like a robot. things are complex. too complex for you to understand. analisiert. bewertet. entschieden. will nicht relativieren. antisemitismas. the panel looks grim. uncomfortable. two women are looking mostly to the ground.
panelists intro:
ralph friedlaender. sig president. the big boss of the swiss jews. geboren in maputo. wuchs in genf auf. uzh alumnus. karriere premium bureaucrat like me: bund. bildung forschung innovation. seco. deza. first thought. we have a lot in common, mon ami. second: violent baba, perpetrator, shoa survivor nakba denier. memories of years of abuse, rage, enemy. stop. breathe.
german turkish lady. sozialsomething some german uni islamwissenschafterin mit fokus nahost. gastprofessorin fuer islamische bildung und theologie. forschungsschwerpunkte jugend migration arbeit juedisch islamische beziehung und radikalisierung of arabs n muslims in goemany. first flash: amir saida duzzen tekkal keller mix, the brown lady that tells supremacist white/european/american people what they wanna hear. second. none.
swiss jewish lady. leads antisemitismusforschung uni berlin center for jewish studies holocaust n research at uni bar ilan. kez topics: gender antisemitismus orientalismus wiedergutmachung. first flash. groundhog day. again. second. therapy heals, love.
sig president starts. happy to be here. i represent sig. dachverband of jews. wahrung interessen der juden in schweiz. juedisches leben nachhaldig sichern. sig regelmassig stellungnahmen. mentions all but israel. important role is antisemitism. we defend israels existenzrecht, right to exist. israels right of defense. resolution uneingeschraenkte solidariaet mit israel. wir haben sogar gaza menschen erwaehnt. leid zivilbevoelkerung bedauert, but verantworttung is hamas. and that’s where the interruption started. indivdidual students. brilliant timing. minds. they stand up one at a time and hold up the mirror to the president with their voice. shouts bang commotion noise. i decide to stand up and bear witness. lions barking shouting at the violent princess. i take my camera and start filming. [insert video]
Open letter to SIG Baba
Dear baba. We met for the first time on Monday. It was tough, but ever since oct7 ive been wanting to reach your heart. SIG president. Swiss Jewish baba. Seco Deza role model, leader, teacher, father.
You started with your mission statement: President of SIG, mission to represent swiss jews, preserve Jewish life, combat antisemitism. You state israel and swiss jews not the same. You dissociate yourself from the actions of the Jewish state.
You defend israel's right to exist. Since 1948. Unconditional. Non-negotiable. As it is. As it was.
14 months after October 7. 45’000+ innocent humans killed by Israels bombs. mentioned in a sidenote. blamed on hamas.
This was the moment when the students interrupted your speech. I wanted to record what they had to say. Your security prevented me but allowed others to proceed. Part of me wanted to walk out in solidarity. Part of me wanted to stay to hear what you have to say. Perhaps meet. So I did.
You proceeded with a ppt slide presentation on antisemitism. Examples you listed include: questioning the legitimacy of the Israeli state, describing israel as a racist/apartheid state, comparing Israeli actions to nazi crimes, accusing Israel of committing comparable crimes (holocaust/genocide) to chanting the slogan “from the river to the sea Palestine will be free”. You accuse me of being an antisemite. You accuse me of hating you. Jews.
I pause here. All the pain from a lifetime of violence buried and oppressed for years come up at once. An entire history of you are not allowed to talk about it. It didn’t happen. They never existed. They are migrants. They could live somewhere else. You’re exaggerating. It’s her. Their. Your fault. that the kids of gaza are dieing. Nakba SIG nie passiert, erfunde, erloge, übertribe relativiert. Du bisch en Judehasser, Antisemit. Each time I cry shout out loud when mama gaza bleeds. What you said was the magnifying mirror of the violence you’ve inflicted on me, for years, and still, despite gaza, refuse to see.
cher baba. il faut q’on parle. tu m’accuse d’etre antisemite. je t’accuse de la violence contre moi mes soeurs et freres arabes musulmans chretiens juifs unis pour la vie. Je t’accuse d’etre complice dans le genocide de gaza.
Perhaps I should start that my definition of violence expands beyond the physical sphere. It entails curbing my freedom to speak. Denying my story, history, ancestry, right to exist, right to travel live breathe where I live, right to resist when I can’t breathe. It includes slandering my name my integrity my essence humanity when I cry and shout as gazas mamas babas children burn die starve drown in a sea of 45'000 bullets n rocks killed by the rage of the violent white man who fails to see me for who i am.
What makes it hard for me to talk to you about it is that I think you know. The new historians, hannah ahrendt, b'tselem, the apartheid state. You’ve been there many times. Zurich telaviv bengurion airport eretz israel checkpoints green light. You know about Gaza. West Bank. Same flight different roads rights. Apart, walled, not frei. What separates you and I is that I’m on the other side of the wall. You know I exist. You know im innocent. But you say im guilty for being there, you refuse to acknowledge my existence, my rights, my freedoms. And you’re actively hurting me. no ceasefire. no unrwa. no hamas. no right to life. resist. die. chalas.
Dear baba. You’re hurting me. You’re hurting us. Please stop. Why do I keep repeating these words. It’s because ive been suffering from your violence for so long. Each time I brought it up you refused to acknowlege my pain suffering talk. After oct 7. Gaza. I can’t hold take it no more. It’s time to stop the violence. Cease the fire. Heal. Now. Please.
Dear baba. Violence occurs in every family. I’m your son. Your my father. Always will be. Ismaili. achi. brother. The first step after violence is. Truth. Hear my story. Hear their stories. Hear our stories. Hear your story. Reconcile. Heal. I hereby invite you to hear mine. Ours. An invitation to learn about our identity, culture, rites and traditions, food, essence, fears and wounds. We are on the same boat, intertwined interconnected in faith life death, lets make a beginning to a fresh start. Sail to a dawn of jewish arab love, empathy, solidarity, formed in spain disrupted by the rage of the unhealed white european man, ending en lengau vilna warsa shoa nakba gaza. A snapshot of every moment in history tells it all: United we thrive, divided we fall.
Who: SIG president and chosen friends/colleagues/family. Me. Arab Muslim Palestinian swiss migrant friends/colleagues/family.
Where: We would love to invite you to our home. But happy to meet at a place that feels more convenient to you. A place where we would be both safe and comfortable. Able to be vulnerable and honest. To each other. And to ourselves.
When: As soon as your time allows. Gaza is burning. We are here.
Thank you for reaching out. Looking forward to your response. Shabbat shalom Achi. Frere. SIG President. Friend.
Teymour
Artivist. Son. Human. Mensch.
Zurich, 20 December 2024
Annex I: List of antisemites according to your IHRA SIG definition (incomplete):
Me. my family, friends, community. Every palestinian human being. Every human who sees them, their plight, their endless suffering. Every human who speaks acts to end it. Amnesty International. Human Rights Watch. B'Tselem. South Africa. Nicaragua. Belgium. Ireland. Colombia. Libya. Egypt. Cuba. Mexico. Spain. Türkiye. Chile. Maldives. Bolivia. >25 percent of american jews. >40 percent of american jews <40. Gabor Rae Daniel Mate. Masha Gessen. Candice Breitz. Deborah Feldman. Nan Goldin. Marek Edelmann and a rising tide of jewish european american swiss western israeli citizens scholars artists academics workers mothers fathers sons daughters voices of awakening conscience. Every single human who empathized with a child born in gaza. Philippe Lazzarini. Carla Del Ponte. Micheline Calmy-Rey. Ruth Dreyfus. The International Court of Justice (ICJ).
Annex II. Definition of antisemitism according to your IHRA SIG definition (excerpts of SIG PPT presentation uzh 16 dec 2023).
Erschheinungsformen von Antisemitismus können sich auch gegen den Staat Israel, der dabei als jüdisches Kollektiv verstanden wird richten. Allerdings kann Kritik an Israel, die mit der an anderen Ländern vergleichbar ist, nicht als antisemitisch betrachtet werden.
Beispiele zur Veranschaulichung (2)
Das Aberkennen des Rechts des jüdischen Volkes auf Selbstbestimmung, z.B. durch die Behauptung, die Existenz des Staates Israel sei ein rassistisches Unterfangen.
Die Anwendung doppelter Standards, in dem man von Israel ein Verhalten fordert, das von keinem anderen demokratischen Staat erwartet oder gefordert wird.
Beispiele zur Veranschaulichung (3)
Das Verwenden von Symbolen und Bildern, die mit traditionellem Antisemitismus in Verbindung stehen (z.B. der Vorwurf des Christusmordes oder die Ritualmordlegende), um Israel oder die Israelis zu beschreiben.
Vergleiche der aktuellen israelischen Politik mit der Politik der Nationalsozialisten.
Das kollektive Verantwortlichmachen von Jüdinnen und Juden für Handlungen des Staates Israels.
Gemäss dieser Definition könnte vieles, was wir heute erleben als antisemitisch bezeichnet werden.
1. From the river to the sea Palestine will be free.
2. Forderung einer Kriegsführung ohne zivile Opfer.
3. Israelis töten absichtlich Kinder.
4. Die Israelis tun den Palästinensern dasselbe an, wie die Nazis den Juden (Genozid, Holocaust)
5. Israel ist ein Apartheid-Staat
6. Aufruf der Hamas, alle Juden zu töten. Alle Israelis sind Besatzer. Alle Juden sind mitschuldig.
Versuch einer alternativen Definition von Antisemitismus. «Jerusalemer Erklaerung» von 2021 die Folgendes ermöglichen will.
1. Antizionismus/die Existenz eines jüdischen Staates in Frage zu stellen.
2. Double Standards: Von Israel höhere Standards zu verlangen.
3. Israel mit Nazi-Deutschland, Apartheid-Südafrika, Rassismus, Terrorismus oder Kolonialismus gleichzusetzen.
4. Zum Boykott von israelischen Produkten, Künstlern, Wissenschaftlern, Politikern, Handelsbeziehungen, militärischer Zusammenarbeit.
Frieda
Aus der Buxe. Hexe. Frau.
Domina. Femina. Schwarz.
Blaue Fische. Blaue Sterne.
Lauern in der Ferne.
Melissa machts dir vor.
Burak auch.
Anne ebenfalls.
Get your shit together. focus. do.
Life tree
Mama
Heroine. Teacher. Role Model.
Work. Action. No Drama.
Soothe. Heal. Fight. For Gaza.
Mama. Khalida. Zina. Bondoka. Eva.
Instructions for life. wake up. pay attention.
Eat. was. move. breathe. read. dance. queen.
be elegant. be fierce. be villanelle.
perfums, fine clothes, perfect.
flight attendant. secretary. unpaid ceo. boss.
she is so hard to attain. perfection is her vain.
love. pain. strength. resilience. fire. rain.
oh how could i describe her. leah laila day and night.
kids. groceries. career. physique.
hell. on earth. i see you.
i feel you every day. in my heart.
push. play start.
Your life. responsibilities. weight.
violence. pain. fire fire. light. right.
to exist. feel. nurture nature.
breathe.
Amira
Sister. teacher. vorbild. heroine.
Habibti. Okhti. Monnos. Kibir.
Smart. Curious. Kind. Sharp.
Big. big . big. heart.
watching mama. burning. lava.
running. caring. cooking. mary.
perfect eve perfect there perfect here.
losing herself. to be. sein. wie sie. wir.
pain. inflammations. medications. repeat.
home. strange. beaten. bleed.
give me your heart. body. soul. verstand.
to give give give, time love body more.
for money. husband. karriere.
luxus. cars. senseless. wars.
toxic. male. no love. no shame.
hurt beat curb. her aspirations. love n emotions.
i feel you. i hear you. more than ever.
posting crying gaza. mama baba dying.
hear me out. it hurts. every frau.
who feels. who bleeds. every hour.
not giving up. ever. ehrgeizig.
ambitious. lioness. princess. fighter.
Mira mira. there she comes.
Amira. Love. me. us.
Younes. laila. galal.
Daughter. sons. elle.
Fearless. fierce. loving.
loud. proud. frau.
Amr
achi. brother. teacher. model. big me.
same room. same school. same way.
egyptian. arab. swiss. male.
pain. pain. love. hate.
felt. in school. kanti oerlike.
buehrle. contraves. waffe. schaffe.
bombe falled uf dihei. pack yo bags.
yalla bye.
egypt air. zurich kloten. new home.
beaten beaten swiss stone.
why you here we want you there.
leave our school country bleib fern.
he didnt. he stayed. here.
played studied worked cared
distributed newspapers with me.
standing on his feet. bedemeaned on repeat.
first kid. hardest luck.
role model without one.
lots of responsibilities.
amira scissors teymour rocks.
lina nayla dalia schoss.
advocate. for me. for law. justice.
against. endless violence. on repeat.
needs yoga. needs sport. sonst perfect. so.
Baba
baba. mama. crying sad shy me. happy happy said.
he is dark. sporty. shy.
loving. loving. kind.
heart of gold. feather of love. dove.
hes like me. sadly. happily.
he doesnt talk. he draws writes poems art.
messages to communicate. languages to translate.
waffenexporte. kriegsmaterial. schweizer hannah ganz banal.
arbeitet bei contraves. oerlikon buehrle.
tennis club. engineer. aenshonieur.
respected. loved. connected.
to love nature poesie. mama. lily. me.
he has seen a lot. povery. armut. not.
recht. existenz. verweigert. verarmt. ungerecht.
aufgestanden. immer wieder. uebersetzt. gehandelt.
hoert auf. haende hoch. halt. frieda tot.
kommt nach aegypten. volleyball am strand.
agami bianchi alexandria fun.
gutes essen. gute laune. menschen. connection.
human human revelation.
we are the same. ganz normale buerger.
arbeiten. streiten. lieben. liebe geben.
nehmen schlagen leiden fuehlen
alles verlieren. gaza schweiz eins.
Oli
achi. best friend. forever. habibi.
faster. smarter. stronger. spiegel.
bild. schweizer familie. tres suisse.
half goeman. haf french. biz frech.
special guy. super fast. super smart.
alert. tall. mathematic brand.
best friend brother cher best man.
swiss french german mentor nerd.
Silvio
egypt. wardian. babas mama. hell.
dusty clothes. dead chicken. rot.
unihockey. only sports. anita kiss kiss don’t like.
we both queer. i know now never knew habibi.
same school. same friends. different lives paths.
economist dentist cray cray same same black holes.
fix bandage heal broken bones. calcium. brush.
eat drink milk every day baba silvio arrive.
Vero
chez Vero. fribourg. anniversaire. toujours nous deux.
freres. croissant nos rivieres montagnes de berne.
pour lamour lespoir le retour. soeur. mama.
chilienne. espici suiss e vero elle.
the fierce woman with a big black spot in the face.
there i am, out and proud, black hole mole villanelle.
fending off all attacks stares glances of eyes in the dark
lurking circling to a rising shark.
raised by a loving baba. shy. kind. smile. like mine.
crowned by a shining mama. confident. elegant.
razor sharp attention. presence. elle.
ximena. veronica. alliende. teacher leader mama.
three kids. a clowny loving husband. career life prospers.
with her. when she’s there. elle e radiante. you know as we
say in french. brilliante. charmante. aimante. adelante.
vamonos. yalla yallah. allez venez. a berne. reveiller.
rever. life. leben. montrer. au monde.
que lunivers est ronde. le ciel vert.
les rivieres velvet. vero. blue. overt.
silvi oli velvet veramour couvert.
swissrat
we have a white supremascist bundesrat
parlament servala swiss establishment
swissrat blau fish emirat
tell. apfel. eva. tot. weiss. kreuz. rot.
e mamas. e babas. y bambini.
vemos todos los hijos hijas
hibas hijabs nina nilit nil sin
zero nunca compassion emocion nada.
neutral. genau. skandal. jedi frau.
innocent. geili sau. zureich snow white face schau.
masc gone. bingo bingo.
heels up. done. home.
race to the bottom. twerky twerky.
puff. piggy piggy top explodes.
beobachter. shwarzes schaf?
wallis berge. herde. erde.
frau. leben. freiheit. apfel. tell.
teilen. heilen. parlamentarier. bundesrat.
feine gerichte get ready parat.
icc icj ic swissair hijacked retake bridge jump spagat.
Habibi Elon. Temple. Grand Mosque.
habibi elon. teacher. baba. son. autistic. nerd. bullied. home.
south africa. apartheid. encyclopedias read drowned inside befreit.
free. white. afrikaans. english. rich genius white dark father.
smart sharp fierce bright shining mama.
habibi elon. my temple. my mosque. my teacher.
my mama. my baba. brother sister.
friend role model. my home. my church.
my teslarianagazastarlinksburning.
habibi elon. rockets. to mars. stars. rockets on gaza. wars.
we need your voice. ayuda. help.
to give us what mama gave you.
beauty. life. creation. villanelle vibe. ceasefire. guns down. healing.
habibi elon. i get you. You discovered fashism in Kamala too.
But habibi, bibi trump same same mosibi. nakba. shoa. catastrophy.
for humans. earth. babies plans worms war plane rocket starts
killing killing not seeing not feeling not forgiving oneself.
habibi elon. infant. human. cost. of looking away. of being bullied.
being singled out as geek nerd. starved. to death. you know it.
you know deep down whats happening in gaza is really really bad.
perhaps because it reminded you of your childhood home.
hell leaven on earth. pretoria. south africa. apartheid. america.
now. project 2025. peace on earth no more genocide n wars
more more teslas elons rockets to mars. if you want.
but you’re welcome dear. loving arab muslim swiss habibi here.
you can’t change history. you cant undo past pain.
but you can change the course of history. cease the fire. now.
Listen to temple. listen to greta. may flowers
best autistic sistas mamas on the planeta.
my love story with you? its complicated.
always felt feel we were related.
first time i saw you on tv.
awkward shy shivering eyes. nerd. hoch zehn.
like yeah im a geek but nay. he makes rockets. cray.
electric cars. from cali cali fornia to the mars.
and then there was this saturday night show.
1. i am autistic 2. i owe it all to mama.
thats the moment when i fell in love. with my brother achi
sibling, sister sister, mama, teacher, elon habibi.
its the sparked that lit the fire in me to know you.
all. youtube bio seth rogan podcast. musk. must.
know. every word. every unsaid unfelt emotion.
i saw: 1. brilliance 2. boundless curiosity
3. razor sharp universe spark intelligence.
the desire to reduce harm, heal pain.
fly to the moon to the stars drive thrive end wars.
that starts with discovering that all forms of life are equal.
divine. here. gaza. mars. us. we.
i paid attention to how you spoke of mama.
wonder wonder power woman.
and its clear. look at her. fierce sharp red sharky villanelle.
may. musk. flower.
b74sp. atlantic sea. saa. jbo-canada. america. free.
without telling me. i know. she raised you. she made you who you are.
amazing. stark. falcon eyes. super rocket model mamas shark.
i also paid attention when you spoke of baba. errol.
error. code. silent. pain pain. numb. rage rage. punch.
i cant pinpoint but i feel it. how it must have felt like for you habibi.
deep inside. cry cry cry.
dutch free burgers. netherlands. haldimann. switzerland.
swissair. saa. south africa. krueger. gold. ubs. bars. connection.
something dark white dark happened there. war violence human blood.
not trevor. noah. apartheid. namibia. nakba. shoa.
electrical mechanical engineer consultant property developer
emerald mines progressive federal party member. stop. inquire.
party platform: holding on between control or die. control or share.
give and take. love. more money wars kids gold mines burnt gone.
dismantling a system of violence he benefits from hurts. reverberates.
dismantling a system you benefit from hurts. reverberates.
discovering the boundless possibilities than you've ever imagined,
if you used your voice clout power to raise hands. to stop. the violence.
genocides. ecocides. wars. on life and mars. now.
you’re in between. in the center. x. seen. heard. loved. respected.
valued. dear dear. protected.
by me. sweet tey tey gaza baby.
you know you know, ceasefirenow please go.
trump won. your confidence. your genius brilliant mind. humanity.
read don’t be eichmann hannah’s banality.
take us to the moons the stars.
end all violence guns and wars.
habibi elon. build bridges to mars. sign treaties.
to protect may flowers accelerate earth healing.
habibi elon. mars mars. fine. link to earth. stars. shine.
earth burned. roots burned. tree suffers. falls.
until one link. stops the bom burn chain.
habibi elon. hope/think its you.